Same shit again... Sorry...
I honestly dont know what to do anymore. I feel so down, a little because Paul is very depressed right now, but mostly because I am so frustrated and feel so lonely. I just want to hug my mum, thats how sad and down I am. Everythings a big mess. Wish that it would knock on our door and when I open there will be people there that cares about us and wants to help us to get things fixed.
I have to push and force myself to get things done, which I shouldnt, but someone have to fix everything. I am not saying that Paul doesnt do anything, he does, we are a team and we both always do our best for eachother, always.
But as I said before, hes very depressed and when you feel like that you need to be alone a little and then its ok to start pressuring again.
It feels like I am just blabbeling about the same shit everyday now, I wish I had something fun to write but I dont.
I need someone to lean on thats not Paul, someone to have a coffee with and gossip, I need to feel normal, I need to get our place fixed so that we can start living. So many wishes.....
I have to push and force myself to get things done, which I shouldnt, but someone have to fix everything. I am not saying that Paul doesnt do anything, he does, we are a team and we both always do our best for eachother, always.
But as I said before, hes very depressed and when you feel like that you need to be alone a little and then its ok to start pressuring again.
It feels like I am just blabbeling about the same shit everyday now, I wish I had something fun to write but I dont.
I need someone to lean on thats not Paul, someone to have a coffee with and gossip, I need to feel normal, I need to get our place fixed so that we can start living. So many wishes.....
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