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I have a BAD throat infection or something. My throat is so swollen that I almost cant swallow my tea because its to painful, but thats not the worst thing about it. When I was 11 years old my sister died from a murder bacteria in her throat, me and my brothers watched mum and dad trying to save her in the hallway. The sounds, watching mum pulling out mucus from my sisters mouth so that she help her breathe, the blod streaming from her nose... All of those memories and feelings comes back to me when someone cough badly or when I have a sore throat myself. It gives me death anxiety and panik. I cried yesterday because I was so scared, I also started to think about what would happen if I died. I am not planning on dying any time soon but you never know. I have to sort things out, so I dont have to be worried about it. I will tell you more about my sister, her life and death an other day, I have to rest now. James is getting two new teeth so he hasnt been sleeping good the last 3 nights= I havent either.
Wedding bouquet
My friend Sanna wants me to make her bridal bouquet next summer. SO MUCH FUN! I love to create something beautiful and personal for someone that I know. It is a bit scary aswell though, I have to make something very special, I love the butterflies I get in my tummy when I get to do something like this. My mind just runs away and I get very crazy ideas. I made my friend Annas bouquet last summer, one of my best friends Pernilla was supporting and assisting me. Think I will ask her to help me this time aswell, we are a good team. I wont let James help this time though, it was a bit hard to consentrate when you had a 8 month old baby crawling around your feet! Anna made the beautiful table decorations herself.
This is what I am aiming for :P
Me now
Me in a few months :P
LCHF- I am starting my new life today!
Im starting my new life this week.... Yes I know that Ive said that at last a millions of times, but now I am going to do it. Starting my LCHF diet now, this week will be hard, I am addicted to sugar and always need it if I dont feel good... But I will succed this time! GO GO GO! I will publich how much weight and centimeters I loose every month.
